Love, loss, and learning to live again

It’s always hard to say good-bye to someone.  Especially the ultimate good-bye, and the loss of life and love.  It’s even harder to move past that moment.  I wouldn’t pretend to be wise enough to know the best way to do so, or even know a good way.  But I will use this week to examine a show that tried to do that, with drama, gentle laughter, and sweet emotion.

“I’m gonna miss you Sam… the way you touch me and comfort me when I’m sad… the way you smile, and the way you dance around when you’re happy… I can’t die and leave you guys!  Who’s gonna clean the toilet?  Who’s gonna clean the oven?  What’s the matter with you, God???  My family’s not a bunch of Boy Scouts who can figure out things for themselves!  That’s what you taught me to do… that’s why I’m here!”
–Cristina Raines, as Kate Hayden, in Sunshine

Sam, Kate, and Jill Hayden -- facing life, love, and death together

In 1973, CBS aired what was, at that time, the most watched TV-movie in history.  It was called Sunshine, and it was based on the true-life story of a woman who was trying to tell her newborn daughter, through a series of tape recordings, what it was “to be young, and a mother, and in love… and dying.”

Cristina Raines broke viewers’ hearts as Kate Hayden, a single mother who developed osteogenic sarcoma, a cancer of the bone in her leg.  Medical science being what it was in the early ’70s, and the progression of the disease also being rather significant, her choices were few:  She could have the leg amputated, and hope that the cancer hadn’t spread; or attempt radical chemotherapy, perhaps eradicating the cancer, but with significant, life changing side effects (which also might affect her still nursing daughter).  Ultimately, she chose neither, and instead lived her life as fully as she could for as long as she could.  Her journey was documented with a series of tape recordings, left as a legacy for her daughter Jill, to hopefully give advice and whatever wisdom Kate could muster, and at least give Jill something to hang onto after Kate was gone.

Amazingly, love found Kate during this otherwise painful time.  A folk musician, Sam, (Cliff DeYoung) comes into her life, and although he wants to be her strength, and help her fight the circumstances fate has dealt her, he loves her and Jill enough to stand by them no matter what.  And then the cancer is finally diagnosed, and it becomes the beginning of the end.  Even though Sam makes mistakes, and has more than his share of troubles accepting what will ultimately happen, Sunshine is really as much a love story and a celebration of life as it is a journey towards its end.

“I mean, marrying me is like betting on a three-legged horse.  You can’t win….”

“Oh, yeah, you can though, yeah, you can… if you have a strange thing for three-legged horses….”

–Kate and Sam, as Sam proposes.

The movie is as much about Sam’s acceptance and love of Kate as it is Kate’s acceptance of death.  Sam is aggravated by the life he’ll have missed out on after Kate is gone, and Kate is at least content in the knowledge of the love that already exists.  The TV-movie comes to a close with Kate’s death, and Sam left raising Jill, the part of Kate that still remains with him.

The movie is a true tear-jerker in the best sense of the term, with outstanding performances by Raines, DeYoung, and Brenda Vaccaro as the doctor trying to convince Kate to try whatever it takes to survive, but ultimately accepting Kate’s decision to die with some sense of dignity, and helping Sam to understand that.  Audiences responded in many ways, much as the different characters did:  some with tears, some with understanding, and some with anger and loss.  Sunshine did what all good drama does:  it engaged your emotions and told a story about what life (and in this case, death) was all about.

The folk "family" -- Weaver, Sam, and Corey

Two years after the airing of Sunshine, NBC decided to air a series in the Spring of 1975, also called Sunshine.  Still set in Vancouver and continuing the story of the movie, it again starred Cliff DeYoung as Sam Hayden, with Elisabeth Cheshire as the now five-year-old Jill.  It’s time for Sam to start learning to live again, to grow up himself and become a father, with the help of neighbor Nora (Meg Foster) and folk bandmates Corey and Weaver (Corey Fischer and Bill Mumy).  Of course, this being the mid-70’s, the central theme of many of the episodes was the tug-of-war between the traditional mores of raising a child, especially on your own, and the free-spirited and open relationship that had developed in this very non-traditional family.  Both Sam and Jill, with assistance from their friends, helped each other grow up, at least a little bit.

Still a rather gentle series, with no laugh track (which was a welcome departure from most half-hour series at the time), Sunshine didn’t necessarily dwell on the depression of what had happened in the character’s past, but didn’t shy away from it either.  Kate’s death was simply part of what had made Sam and Jill what they were, and they were both learning to live life as they dealt with the memories, both good and bad, of Kate and her recorded legacy.  This was a very different way to frame a series, and while not maudlin in any way, it was still not the usual laugh-a-minute fare of most “comedies”.  It had a more common tonality with shows such as Little House on the Prairie and The Waltons, yet was set in present day.  Therefore, Sunshine dealt, most gently, with more modern issues of family, love, and life.  And maybe it still hit a bit close to home for some because of the current time frame and the back story of the characters.  It lasted 13 episodes, and the series was over.

Sunshine Christmas

The story, however, wasn’t finished.  Two years later, in 1977, NBC commissioned another TV-movie for the holiday season called Sunshine Christmas, with the entire cast returning.  Friend (and surrogate mom) Nora is getting married, Sam’s turning 30, and he’s realizing he’s not really going to make it big as a musician.  He still has the responsibility of raising a daughter, let alone making life-changing decisions about his own direction.  He finally has to grow up, but he doesn’t really know how, even now.

This uncertainty leads him back home from Vancouver to the plains of Texas and his steadfastly conservative parents, played by Pat Hingle and Eileen Heckart, and his high-school sweetheart, played by Barbara Hershey.  Sam tries to mold himself into the man his parents always wanted him to be, instead of the man he’s become.  After a brief, but serious, fling with the old sweetheart, and a visit from his old friends Weaver, Corey, and Nora, Sam realizes that it just isn’t possible to be someone he’s not.  Wanting what he thinks is best for Jill, he decides to leave her there with his nice, stable parents, and rides away on his motorcycle, back to Vancouver… until he crashes just outside of town.  Sitting there, with his pride gone and his heart empty, he suddenly realizes that, no matter what he is or isn’t, no matter what he may or may not become, there’s no meaning for any of it without Jill…

…who has realized the same thing about Sam, and has forced her grandparents to chase after him down the dusty Texas highway, to finally reunite the two of them.  They know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that whatever life will throw at them, be it loss, joy, or anything in between, they have to grow up together.

Sunshine Christmas was very successful, and ran on NBC for a few years as a holiday special before fading away.  Both of the movies and the series featured the songs of John Denver (hence the title Sunshine, as in “Sunshine on my Shoulders”, Kate’s favorite song ), and music was featured heavily in many of the episodes, both as background and as part of the plot (Sam actually proposes to Kate in the original movie DURING his singing of “My Sweet Lady” in the hospital room!).  In fact, DeYoung’s version of “My Sweet Lady” actually broke the Top 20 of the Billboard chart that year.  Unfortunately, the extensive use of music, plus the fact that the original movie was on CBS and the subsequent series and Christmas movie were NBC properties have pretty much precluded any possible DVD release. Bootlegs of the movies are available, but if you don’t mind 13 parts, someone has put the original movie up on YouTube recently.  Unfortunately, none of the series seems to exist, although if anyone has any leads, I’m sure listening.  There were book versions of both Sunshine and Sunshine Christmas,  AND a novelization of some of the TV episodes, written by Norma Klein.  The original movie novelization was a perennial Young Adult best seller for many years, going into well over 20 printings.

CLIFF DEYOUNG (Sam Hayden) was a legitimate singer long before Sunshine, playing with Jimi Hendrix, The Doors, and Janis Joplin, and had a starring turn on Broadway in the original production of the musical Hair.  His lengthy career on television includes guest spots in series from the ’70’s to current shows, with memorable turns as Robert Kennedy in Kings and the crazed Doctor in the Robocop series.  He still has an active schedule, recently appearing in Grey’s Anatomy and In Plain Sight.

Sunshine was one of the first roles for CRISTINA RAINES (Kate Hayden), in a career that included regular stints on the mini-series Centennial and the series Flamingo Road.  Numerous guest roles followed until 1991, when she retired from the acting business.  She is married to writer/producer/director Christopher Crowe.

ELISABETH CHESHIRE (Jill Hayden) had a reasonably busy career as a child actor, appearing in shows like Fantasy Island, Family, and Highway to Heaven.  Her best known role is in the Oscar-winning movie Melvin and Howard, and she also appeared in the movie Looking for Mr. Goodbar.

MEG FOSTER (Nora) and her exotic grey eyes have been found in many different productions, including portraying the original Chris Cagney in Cagney & Lacey.  She’s also known as the villainess of the He-Man and the Masters of the Universe movie, and had memorable roles in Quantum Leap, Star Trek: DS9, and as Queen Hera in both the Hercules and Xena series.

BILL MUMY (Weaver) was famous as a child, playing Will Robinson on Lost in Space, and also a frightening role as a child with overwhelming powers in a classic episode of The Twilight Zone.  As an adult, he’s best known as Lennier on Babylon 5, and has an extensive voice-over career in animated shows, commercials, and as one of the narrators for A&E’s Biography series.  He’s an accomplished musician as well, playing at least seven different instruments.

COREY FISCHER (Corey) left television for the stage shortly after Sunshine Christmas, becoming an award-winning playwright and co-founding A Traveling Jewish Theatre, later finding a permanent home for himself and the theatre group in San Francisco.  Although he still continues to appear on television occasionally, his writing has expanded to fiction as well as plays, and he continues to work with the ATJT group on a regular basis.

” I love you, Daddy.”

“I love you more, squirrel, ’cause I’m bigger.”

–Jill and Sam, near the end of Sunshine Christmas

I don’t need to add anything here.  Those two simple statements are what it’s all about.

Vital Stats

Sunshine 2-hour TV movie:  aired November 9, 1973 on CBS.

Sunshine (the series)
13 aired episodes — no unaired episodes
NBC Network
First aired episode:  March 6, 1975
Final aired episode:  May 29, 1975 (with absolutely no pre-emptions for its entire run… almost unheard of these days)
Aired at Friday 8/7 Central?  No.  Its regular slot was Thursdays at 8/7 Central.

Sunshine Christmas:  aired December 12, 1977 on NBC.

Comments and suggestions welcomed as always.

–Tim R.

  1. Discoverer said:

    This one sounds sad but very sweet. I haven’t seen it, but your description was terrific – thank you for a very touching post.

  2. Bonnie MacDonald said:

    I loved this movie; anytime it came on, I was guaranteed a good, cleansing cry. I have been looking everywhere for a copy. Is it in 13 parts on u-tube because of the commercials from the original airing on TV? I wish someone could bring it back; it was a wonderful story of courage and love.

    • Toni Huntsman said:

      oh honey i found my copy of both Sunshine and Sunshine Christmas on this web site called Sunshine Vintage movies. It cost 19.98 for both. The quality is very good. I love mine

  3. eden said:

    I could probably recite the whole book for you, having read it 256 times. It is my favorite movie and when I am feeling like the world is against me I put the movie in and watch it put me into perspective. I have been obsessed with this story and have been researching the real people to find out the outcome of their lives.

    • Susan said:

      Where did you get a copy of this movie. I have been trying to locate for years

  4. N Chambers said:

    Great series. Cliff de Young had a role in the 1989 movie Glory! Would love to see this series again! Very evocative of the time & place. And loved the Vancouver setting. Thanks for this great article on a great series!

  5. Since I had no idea that anyone remembered “Sunshine,” discovering this blog has been a very pleasant surprise. I had the good fortune to play Givits, Sam’s (Cliff De Young) bandmate in the original “Sunshine” TV movie and all the subsequent related projects. For me, the 13 weeks of the TV series was the most satisfying. Bill Mumy and I were able to write one of the episodes and occasionally got to play a bit of our own music along with all the John Denver stuff. Cliff, Bill young Elizabeth Cheshire and Meg were/are wonderful people and terrific actors. Going to work everyday with those folks was a delight. The late George Eckstein, who produced all the various incarnations of “Sunshine” was an unusually kind, generous and visionary human being who had everything to do with the heartfulness of the shows. The first movie was directed by Joe Sargent, a pioneer TV director, who, like George, was way ahead of his time. It was sad that the series only lasted for 13 weeks. NBC got tens of thousands of letters from people who loved the show, but in those pre-cable days of broadcast network domination, the pressure to achieve enormously high “ratings” was huge. The show was just too unusual, too intelligent and genre-bending to survive back then. Maybe it’s time for a remake? Thanks for doing such thorough and accurate research!

      • There’s a Facebook group. check it out.

    • Isabel said:

      Cory, either a remake or a Sunshine 2017…maybe Jill has grandkids by now, LOL but I would love it. This way my favorite movie EVER and I adored it. Now when I look back it was probably the most important input in my young life (I was 12 at the time). It really molded my life…I am forever grateful to all of you 🙂

  6. Eve Saizan said:

    I bought both “Sunshine” and “Sunshine Christmas” from this company and am pleased considering they are over FORTY years old, it’s decent.

  7. Janine said:

    I would love a copy of this movie

  8. qodw1948 said:

    I had been trying to remember the name of this movie forever. I had seen it when I was about 9 or 10 late at night (in the early 80s), and couldn’t for the life of me remember. I loved the music. I even posted some of the details I remembered (30-some years later) on a website called “I remember this movie”, and someone told me the name. It was such a sweet movie. I still remember crying at the end. ❤

  9. Ywen said:

    I just wish, with all of the old TV shows that are showing up on various streaming channels, that someone would dig up the Sunshine TV series and air it. I would be over the moon!! I still remember the premise of some of the episodes. It’s also where I learned what an Aspidistra” is. 🙂

    • Sheila Gazlay said:

      It will never be aired again but a couple of years ago a business that is now out of business made a blu ray of it and I hear th quality is fantastic. You can find it on Amazon and eBay. The name of the company was Twilight Times Movies and the picture on the front has a yellow background. Visit the Sunshine group on Facebook for more info.

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